Again, one day late. This time I simply forgot that yesterday was Wednesday. Not until late in the afternoon when Shani called concerned about the absence of the blog, did I realize I didn't weigh in. This, I view as a positive sign, that I am not completely obsessed by the scale. I was simply too busy preparing for the holiday. It was way too late to weigh in during the late afternoon, so I waited til this morning. I lost 1.2 pounds this week and went to the gym only once!
Today, I am thankful for my health, my family, my good fortune, thus far, and my unbelievable relationships-this includes all of you. Thank you for the votes of confidence, the love, the laughter, the mighty shoulders, and the never-ending support, and the phone calls. Ryan says I need to see the phone doctor because I could never get off. Heck, I'm even thankful for this body I've been given that has served me oh so well. I will resume basting my turkey and will spare you all of any self-loathing and useless commentary today. I am truly thankful.
"It's a HOLI D-A-Y, not a HOLI W-E-E-K"
-another ancient Weight Watchers adage
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Liar Liar
I am breaking "the rules" in my fourth month of my little game here. I said I would weigh-in NO MATTER WHAT. Well, it's WHAT, yes, donkeys are flying and hell is freezing over (or at least if feels like it outside). Although, my state of mind is a bit better, it is "my time" again and I could not bear another week of defeat and hopelessness on the scale.
I dragged myself to the gym kicking and screaming (in my head, of course) but I managed to sweat it out today. All my great work this morning was followed by pick, pick, picking on whatever carbs I could find hanging around the kitchen this afternoon. This occurred only after seeing the jewelry making lady this afternoon, who has been a bit chubby too for as long as I've known her....yes, it makes me feel good! Well, this lady just lost 15 pounds and looks awesome. She told me she stays low on the carbs and refined sugars. Why did I just indulge in those carby treats then, just don't know! After I felt completely sickened by what I just did and undid, my smiling, freckly, seven year old rang the doorbell with a "Hi Mom, this is for you" and handed me a paperback copy of "Skinny Bitch". I want to thank my dear friend for driving my boy home and for having him deliver the book to borrow, as promised. Timing, however, is everything! At least, I'm smiling. I will take it with me to my son's appt. and begin to read in the waiting room. I hope I get motivated. I am flailing in the wind here!
"Elizabeth Taylor has more chins than the Chinese telephone directory"
-Joan Rivers
I dragged myself to the gym kicking and screaming (in my head, of course) but I managed to sweat it out today. All my great work this morning was followed by pick, pick, picking on whatever carbs I could find hanging around the kitchen this afternoon. This occurred only after seeing the jewelry making lady this afternoon, who has been a bit chubby too for as long as I've known her....yes, it makes me feel good! Well, this lady just lost 15 pounds and looks awesome. She told me she stays low on the carbs and refined sugars. Why did I just indulge in those carby treats then, just don't know! After I felt completely sickened by what I just did and undid, my smiling, freckly, seven year old rang the doorbell with a "Hi Mom, this is for you" and handed me a paperback copy of "Skinny Bitch". I want to thank my dear friend for driving my boy home and for having him deliver the book to borrow, as promised. Timing, however, is everything! At least, I'm smiling. I will take it with me to my son's appt. and begin to read in the waiting room. I hope I get motivated. I am flailing in the wind here!
"Elizabeth Taylor has more chins than the Chinese telephone directory"
-Joan Rivers
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
New England
My update is not the best. I have gained 2.2 pounds this week. I know why.
Back in my college days, during times of heartache and heartbreak I turned to two sources of comfort: food and Barry......Manilow. While everyone else would enjoy moshing to Nirvana or getting stoned to Pearl Jam, I would free fall into the depths of despair under my covers blasting Weekend in New England, only after downing spoonfuls of Cocoa Krispies drenched in Fluff in my walk in pantry. Admittedly, both behaviors were quite embarrassing and I longed for my solitude so that I would not be found out. Ironically, I was never really alone in this. Hundreds of thousands of college women (and men of a certain persuasion) also eased their pain by closet eating and by crying it out to Barry Manilow too...the guiltiest of all pleasures.
Nowadays, I have pretty much broken my dependence on the Copacabana guy and instead I turn to another Barry in my times of need. I'm lucky for that. I have not yet learned why I can not break the other behavior despite knowing much better and knowing how much worse I will feel later on.
"Time in New England took me away, To long rocky beaches and you, by the bay"
-Barry Manilow
Back in my college days, during times of heartache and heartbreak I turned to two sources of comfort: food and Barry......Manilow. While everyone else would enjoy moshing to Nirvana or getting stoned to Pearl Jam, I would free fall into the depths of despair under my covers blasting Weekend in New England, only after downing spoonfuls of Cocoa Krispies drenched in Fluff in my walk in pantry. Admittedly, both behaviors were quite embarrassing and I longed for my solitude so that I would not be found out. Ironically, I was never really alone in this. Hundreds of thousands of college women (and men of a certain persuasion) also eased their pain by closet eating and by crying it out to Barry Manilow too...the guiltiest of all pleasures.
Nowadays, I have pretty much broken my dependence on the Copacabana guy and instead I turn to another Barry in my times of need. I'm lucky for that. I have not yet learned why I can not break the other behavior despite knowing much better and knowing how much worse I will feel later on.
"Time in New England took me away, To long rocky beaches and you, by the bay"
-Barry Manilow
Thursday, November 6, 2008
Feeling Patriotic
Hello, and once again I'm a day late in writing this installment, however, I did weigh in yesterday. I'm down another .8lbs. Must be "my number". This, I believe, brings me back to 7.2. This makes me feel less guilty about redeeming my walk to the coffee place with Janet this morning.
On Sunday, me and Melissa had a wonderful time at Woodbury Commons. I made it til 5pm which is really long for me. Many of you know that I am not a good shopper and lose patience and frustrate quickly--kinda like going to the beach for me!
We have a new President Elect which is extremely exciting. My hope, along with millions of others, is that we could put our differences aside and put our focus back into appreciating what is well and good in our country. I feel patriotic and inspired.
"We never repent of having eaten too little."
-Thomas Jefferson
On Sunday, me and Melissa had a wonderful time at Woodbury Commons. I made it til 5pm which is really long for me. Many of you know that I am not a good shopper and lose patience and frustrate quickly--kinda like going to the beach for me!
We have a new President Elect which is extremely exciting. My hope, along with millions of others, is that we could put our differences aside and put our focus back into appreciating what is well and good in our country. I feel patriotic and inspired.
"We never repent of having eaten too little."
-Thomas Jefferson
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